Sunday, July 13, 2008

"Not Goodbye, See You Later"

I wanted to give a little update on things in the Ramsey Family.

It has been 4 days since our miscarriage. Hearts still mending, tears still flowing, moments of calm and moments of complete hysteria. :)
More than anything else that I have felt, much more than grief, sorrow and pain, is the love of my Heavenly Father and His hand in my life. I love the scripture from the Book of Mormon in 1Nephi 11:16-17 : "And he said unto me, Knowest thou the condescension of God? And I said unto him, I know that he loveth his children; nevertheless, I do not know the meaning of all things."
I likewise do not know all the answers. I don't know why sometimes God delivers us and sometimes allows us to suffer. I don't know what purpose is served through the trials that our little family is going through. But I do know that God loves me. Because I know this, I know that His plan for me is real and that it is just.

On the medical side, our doctor believes that the two miscarriages are not related. She thinks that our chances of conceiving again quickly and carrying to term are excellent. In her words, she is "supremely confident that we will be able to have more children and soon. " While this might not always be the case, Mike and I have both felt strongly that this spirit is still coming to our family. I love the movie John Q with the little boy who will never say goodbye because he "hates goodbyes" so he always says, "see you later." For me, this miscarriage was not a goodbye but a "see you later" (and might I add soon...HOPEFULLY).

The d&c went well. I am thankful for modern medicine. I don't remember anything and have felt very little pain, physically.

We have also been so blessed to have so many wonderful friends and family members. We have felt the love and prayers of many fall upon our shoulders, bringing relief to the burdens and renewing our strength. We love you all and are thankful for all you do for our family.

7 comments:

Terri said...

Aww I am glad that we have the church so we can be a peace. I have you in my prayers.

Love ya

Josh said...

Jenny,
You have such a great outlook on life. My Mom had several miscarriages, but still gave birth to 7 kids & adopted 3 as well. "Ya'll" are great & we're excited to see you some time soon now that we're out here.
Josh

Rebecca said...

Your strength and faith amaze me...truly amaze me. I am thinking and praying for you every day. I love you very much and am here for whatever you might need.

The Tylkas said...

I'm so glad that you're doctor is confident that things will go okay. I'm praying for you!

Dunstan Family said...

we will still be praying

Kelli said...

It's amazing what comfort we can find in the scriptures. We definitely do not know the meaning of all things because to quote another scripture, "Faith is not to have a perfect knowledge of things." Let me know if you need some company. :)

The Valentine's said...

Jenny, Im so sorry, I had no idea. My heart aches for you and your family. How greatful we are to know that you will see you little ones at a later time. We have you in our prayers. Love you.